I feel a little guilty for spewing yesterday.
It took me a long time to forgive Todd for what he did, but after I did I felt so much better. I know I should be the bigger person and just learn to forgive and move on. By holding this grudge I'm only hurting myself, not them. I guess I'm just afraid of getting hurt again.
I guess it was just the crappy mood that egged on the anger. I feel so much better and happier today. I'm just not quite sure what's going on in muh brain.
Cody and I have been dating for 7 months today. I'm so lucky to have him in my life. Just when I thought I'd never find another person who 'got' me, who loved me for me, and who would stand by me through thick and thin, Cody walked in to my life. Or, should I say, responded to my Facebook message. And now I wonder how it's possible that I lived 20 years without him. He may prefer calming music when I'd rather boogie, he may hate my BFF Wes Anderson, and his eyes may glaze over when I start freaking out about Zac Posen's new line at Target, but when we're in a crowded room, he's still the only person I see. He's my best friend. He's the love of my life, or as he would say, the wrub of my lime. :)
And to end this surprisingly cheerful post, I'll add one of my favorite quotes from Albert Camus (I think...it may be another existentialist...maybe Sartre):
You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.
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