Soapbox.

Lately I've had the really serious urge to write again, but as soon as I press pen to paper I get nervous and freak out and stop. I used to be so good and so prolific at my writing, and then I came to college and started hanging out with the most pretentious writing majors alive...it kinda ruined the art form for me. I keep thinking, "What would so-and-so think of this paragraph? He'd/She'd probably make fun of it." Why the fuck should I care? My brain is a very scary place. And like my dearest Kate said, "The writing department doesn't consider anything legitimate unless you're writing about your anorexia." Quote of the month, for sure.

My graduation is coming soon, and I've started taking inventory of the non-academic things I've learned at Susquehanna University. Such as:
-Girls suck. It doesn't matter if they're not the typical sorority bimbo. They will invariably cause drama and try to fuck each other's boyfriends/girlfriends.
-There is no point in keeping close friends because they will inevitably let you down.
-Trust very few people. Those you consider to be mentors and leaders will turn on you in a second.
-If you don't like drinking until you puke every night and having random sex with guys in madras shorts, don't enroll here.
-Gossip is rampant. Part of it is that this is a small school, the other part..well...see the 'girls suck' section.
-You cant claim you want to bring diversity here and then do nothing to bring about change. For instance, you want to be welcoming to transgendered people? Stop making only women's and men's bathrooms. You want more Muslims to come here? Make an accessible mosque and don't serve pork at every single meal. Want more black students? Don't make them feel like usable objects to parade around on the covers of admissions brochures and trips with President Lemons. Get it? Good.
-Stop letting every asshole with a high school diploma into this place. I want classes with smart, challenging students who are prepared and serious. I realize that it's college and everyone has different maturity levels, but c'mon man. You should hear the shit these people say in class.

And unlike other certain pissed-off figures on this campus *coughSimonaHillcough* I've actually done my part in trying to make this a better place. I'm well-known all over campus, especially with the important administrators and the President. I worked my ass off these past 3 years, and all it has done is make me more cynical and jaded. I can't wait to leave and never look back.