Oh, stuff.

Things have been pretty shit-tastic lately. And it seems as though a stiff breeze can knock me from being content to depressed, and vice-versa.
The big things are pretty good:
-I have a wonderful man in my life.
-I'm healthy (despite the ouchy finger).
-My mom is amazing.
-I'm going to graduate early.
-I'm going to France next semester.
-My grades aren't what I'd like them to be (but to be fair, are they ever?) but I'm still doing pretty well and passing.
-I'm looking out for my health and trying to eliminate huge stresses.
-I'm all over everything at SU, which is a nice affirmation that at least someone here values me.
-Did I mention Cody? :)

So despite being publicly humiliated by two people I considered to be mentors, ending up with an extraordinarily disappointing fellowship, having to leave behind that wonderful man and amazing mom for a few months, losing most of my friends, and dealing with some pretty intense depression/anxiety/trich, I'm trying to keep my chin up. I've been told that this kind of crap is what defines character, and considering I'll have to be a real person this time next year, I need to start building a stockpile of it. I know that in the long run, things will be ok. But it's so hard to focus on that when all I want to do is lock myself in the basement and sleep or move to Scranton and play House for a few months. I'm trying to focus on self-improvement and growth of the real me, not the me that I wish I was (see: previous posts, haha).
I'm just need to be ok with being ok.
And also some sort of snack from Sheetz.